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.Please.Make it—” Make it last.Make it real.Make it mine.All the words choked away when orgasm lit up his spine and exploded.He screamed, clawing at Xavier’s back.“Fuck.Goddamn.” Xavier snarled in his ear.“That’s it.Come for me.Give it to me.Squeeze me with it.”Seed spurted between them onto Dima’s stomach, his cock untouched.“Oh God.Oh God.” He convulsed, ass clenching.Xavier growled and kissed him.His pace sped up, breath loud, whistling from his nose as he pounded Dima’s ass.“Fuck.Rush.God, baby.Let me come.Let me come for you.”Dima clenched and Xavier yelled.His cock jerked and he shot inside Dima, pure heat, all cream.Dima took his lips, fucked his mouth as Xavier panted and clung to him, chest heaving.They held each other, their chests the only thing moving as Xavier throbbed inside him.* * * *“I didn’t set out looking for this.” Dima kept his attention on the food as he spoke.They’d finally made their way from the bed to the kitchen where they’d microwaved the lasagna Carol had made for dinner.They’d piled a large portion onto a plate with two forks and two glasses of water.Now they were back in the bed, Xavier’s bed.Dima sat up against the pillows and Xavier sat in front of him with the plate between them.“What do you mean?” Xavier asked.Dima took a sip of water and shifted.His ass ached.That sweet, well-fucked ache he hoped didn’t go away too soon.“I don’t want— I didn’t want a relationship,” he said softly.He still didn’t look at Xavier.He speared some of the lasagna and forked it into his mouth.After a beat, Xavier asked, “What did you want?”Dima looked up then, directly into Xavier’s intense stare.“I just wanted to get off.It’d been a very long time since I had that kind of release.I was simply looking for that.”Xavier nodded slowly as he chewed.“But why me? What made you decide I was the one to give you what you needed?”He shrugged.“I watched you with the woman.Savannah.I just knew.You got me hot.Made me want to do anything so you could whip me like you were whipping her, but without that detached shit you had happening.” He smiled and shook his head.“I don’t do this.Relationships.Xavier…”Xavier just watched him, waiting for Dima to put what he felt into words.It wasn’t easy.Nothing about this situation was.“I play around,” he whispered, looking back down at his plate.“It’s what I do.I fuck around.I drink too much.Smoke too much.” He swallowed.“I do harder stuff sometimes.I have toys that I use and throw away.” Jerking his head back up, he looked Xavier in the eye.“You were supposed to be the next in a long line of toys.”Xavier studied him, dark eyes seeing everything.“Things change, Rush.We’re both learning that.”They did, but… “I don’t know how to do this.” Dima motioned between them.“It scares me,” he whispered.“The way I feel, the way you make me feel.It scares me.” Too much to put into words.He’d never had something to lose before.Xavier leaned over and cupped Dima’s jaw.“You’re not the only one, Dima.I want you.I’d do anything to keep you here, in my bed.I want you here.”He nodded.“I want to be here.” He wanted to hide away between the sheets, never coming out to face the real world.His world.“You gonna share the reason for that bruise on your face?”Dima shrugged.“Fight with my brother.”One of Xavier’s eyebrows shot up.“Your brother did that to you?”“Pyotr wants more than I’m comfortable giving him.” Dima stared down at his plate, pushing the food around.“I had a man killed today.” Xavier tensed, but Dima kept going, kept talking.If Xavier wanted him, he had to know who Dima was.“He knew too much about my business.” He barked a harsh laugh.“He got arrested for killing his wife because she was prostituting to keep their family afloat.She confessed to him who she worked for and he beat her so badly, he almost decapitated her.I had him killed.Wished I could have done it myself.”Xavier forked the last piece of abandoned lasagna into his mouth.Dima looked at him.His face was carefully blank.And it hurt, but Dima couldn’t stop talking, couldn’t stop the words from bubbling up from his throat, all bitter and filled with self-hatred.“I didn’t do it because he hurt Valentina.I did it because he knew something about me that could hurt me.” He shook his head.“I couldn’t have that.I protect myself.I protect what’s mine,” he said harshly.“Any means necessary, Xavier.Any means necessary.” Xavier’s lips parted, but Dima didn’t let him speak.“I’m not a nice person.I’m not easy to handle.I do bad things.I do it every day.”“Huh.” Xavier’s eyes narrowed.“Is this the part where I cut my losses? Where I walk away? Where I leave you to self-destruct?”He didn’t know.“I don’t know.” Dima’s eyes watered.“I wouldn’t mind if you did.” The words were like hot ash on his tongue, burning.“I wouldn’t hold it against you if you did.”“Yeah?” Xavier swiped the empty plate to the floor and clasped Dima’s throat in one large hand.“I’d hold it against you if you let me leave.I’d hold it against you if you let me walk away, Rush, with my cum dripping down the back of your legs and your lips still swollen from my kisses [ Pobierz całość w formacie PDF ]